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HAPPY 560TH POST!

actually this is kinda little for being alive for almost 4 years.
but its okay, i'll promise i'll update more regularly!!

as you can see, through this blog you can see my secondary school life,
you can see how i went through the pain of going through O levels,
my first year of doing silat till now; i started 2005,
the moment where Rose died, her pictures are still up,

you can see how i had my times with my ex boyfriends;
buntal, khairul AR,
how i fought with bayah and andiq because of a stupid online tag?
fuck, how fucking immature!!!!!
how i cheated buntal and went out with his friend! xD
but at that point our relationship was already dying.
i know if me and buntal were to talk about this now, we'd be laughing our ass off.

how i went crazy over syidin,
just to know that when he said i love you to me, he was saying the same thing to 7 other girls.
no wonder 8 was his favourite number. hahaha fuckhead.
sometimes i wonder why am i such a pussy to waste my time on him.
but i know i make mistakes la. (:
you can see how i get emotionally disturbed when people tend to leave me.
and its not usual for that to happen, thats why it looked like im over-reacting when it was just unusual to me.

how happy i was when i went party!!!
get loose momma!

and how my friendship with UC went on the rocks with the guys and then going smoothly back again,
how i had the time of my life with them,
enjoyed going out with them, having them as my children,
being called mummy, and fairzul becoming daddy.
what wonderful memories...

how i spent my 5 months of not schooling working as a barista at coffee bean,
having afiq to bring me home after work,
getting to accept the fact that my sister is gay and had my manager as her first girlfriend. Lol.
pecah babe.
and then to learn to reject people nicely but still be very fucking nice to them.
gah~ the irony.

going through year 1 at singapore polytechnic.
and here i am now! :D

going through all these years, ive finally found my true friends.
and ive found friends who only look for you when they're in need,
friends who stabbed you in the back,
be a bitch behind you, talk bad about you,
when you shared everything with them and you want them to keep it a secret,
but it still spreads.
like fuck kan. yeah, i know.
some things are just better left unsaid.
i also managed to get immune to your way of life,
i dont know what kind of person you're turning into and i dont know what you're trying to prove to everybody.
GAH.
i really dont know la joy.
BIKIN GUA PANAS AH DOHHHHHHHHHHH.

anyways, 2006 was a nice year, having the best class ever 2/8 '06. having IG, ok stop right there la. lol.
2007 was nice too, having buntal as my boyfriend, i learnt how to handle boyfriends who talk rudely.
2008 was lovely, having khairul as my boyfriend even though it was awhile, it made me stronger i know it made me the person i am now, 2008 made me realise that the one who's always there for me was mardhiah. love you babe wherever you are right now. 2008 has made me even more stressed because of O's. but managed to pull it through with good grades too!
wished i'd had that kinda discipline now!
2009 was hell of a slack for me. i slacked like fuck. and i got some working experience.
and i started to get my freedom, slowly but i got it :D
2009's a start to behave like an adult cause when you're schooling at a poly, you have to push yourself. and 2009 made me realise that I always have boys around me, i can get them anytime i want but i never get the ones that i want. ;)
so 2010 has a great start. especially at the night of the new year. :D
i had the greatest company ever, and then it went down,
came up with fucked up problems which made me even more stronger, really stronger,
i managed to learn and accept reality, and i accept imperfections.
i learnt that i should not talk too nicely as in "sayang" or "baby" to just anyone.
i know that's my style of speech but not everyone interpret it the way I do.
so i only say to my peoples in the houze yo!!!!! :D

and i love ya'll!

and I LOVE ZULKHAIRIL ZULHANIF PERIOD PERIOD

MENSES PERIOD!

HAHAHAHA.

i guess thats it for now. i'll update more about yearly stuffs when it reachs 2014! hahahaha!
BYE ALL.